Thursday, October 16, 2008
I miss Owen. So many things about him. I am also sad thinking about the life he will not be able to have now-things he won't be able to do...
Thank you to everyone who was able to come see us at the visiting hours and at the memorial service and share your condolences with us. It was good to see everyone, although obviously I wish we could have all seen each other during happier circumstances.
A few stories from those two days: First, it was incredibly awesome that the entire jv and varsity football teams and coaching staff showed up in uniform as a team. Seeing that in itself was emotional, then one of the players gave me a jersey and tiger armband with Owen's initials on it-all of the players were wearing one. The team dedicated this year's season to Owen. For those who do not know, Seth plays jv football-it was really such a nice symbol of support.
One of Owen's friends came in with his parents and gave me a big hug. While I was holding him, he asked where Owen was, and I told him that Owen was in heaven, but that when he fell asleep that Owen would be able to come and play with him. Jake asked, "Can we race?" I said, "Absolutely you guys can race." and then Jake asked, "How fast can angels run?" It was the absolute sweetest thing, and of course I completely lost it. It was truly one of those "out of the mouths of babes" moments.
Releasing the balloons after the service on Monday was nice-Owen would have loved it.
So much to say...it's really unbelievable to think that I will not be able to hold Owen again, or see him, touch him...all of those things I was so thankful for when he was still here with us. So many regrets I have about things I should have done with him that I will now never have the chance to do. I do have many happy memories to look back upon, I just wish he was here with me to remember them with.