I wish I could say that it gets easier with time, but it doesn't...In fact, I dare say that it gets harder.  It is unfortunate that I rarely dream of Owen, either, so I am not even able to hold him in my dreams. I don't understand why my mind, in such pain without him, wouldn't allow me that reward at least.

   I am so thankful that I have been able to meet other parents who have lost their children to cancer.  While I wish that we all still had our children with us, meeting them, having each other to lean on, to talk to (and have them fully understand everything you are saying), to hold each others hands is such a welcome gift.

  

   We all blew out the candles on Owen's cake-and I imagine that we all made the same wish...

 I miss you, Frogger. So much...you made me complete. I feel lost without you...