He is Gone
You can shed tears that he is gone,
Or you can smile because he lived,
You can close your eyes and pray that he will come back,
Or you can open your eyes and see all that he has left.

Your heart can be empty because you can't see him
Or you can be full of the love that you shared,
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
Or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.

You can remember him and only that he is gone
Or you can cherish his memory and let it live on,
You can cry and close your mind be empty and turn your
back,
Or you can do what he would want: smile, open your eyes,
love and go on.

Toot toot chugga chugga big red car!  We travel near and we travel far. Toot toot chugga chugga big red car, we're gonna ride the whole day long!!

  It's funny how Wiggles songs can pop into my head-they are quite catchy and cheery!  Owen had the opportunity to see The Wiggles twice. I have to admit that I probably enjoyed the shows as much as he did!  Want proof? Here we are with Murray Wiggle--notice who has the bigger smile??  The last show, my favorite dancer, Ben, was there. When he ran through the aisle, right past us, I shouted "I love you, Ben!" Owen laughed and said, "You love that guy!"

  I have the Wiggles as a background on my igoogle screen. Makes me think of the hours and hours of fun we had singing and dancing to the Wiggles!!  Owen is hopefully doing that now, as I am!

It was one year ago today that we learned that Owen had relapsed...so much has changed in a year. A year ago, Owen was happy and carefree.  I was watching videos of him this weekend--he was such a funny kid!  I can't believe what an amazing kid he was-so full of life, humor and fun! (He got it from his big brothers!! Humor is such a big part of our lives, and he rolled right along with that and it was such a huge part of who he was...who he is!)

    Tomorrow, it will be 6 months since Owen died, the last time I was able to hold him...It feels like it has been forever, and like it has only been a few hours at the same time.  That day, time went so fast, from the time he actually passed until the time that PJ came to take him.

  On the 14th, it will be 2 years from when we first took him to the hospital, the 19th, 2 years from his brain surgery...April is one heck of a month worth of memories...both good and bad-April was when we went on the Make a Wish trip that was such a blast last year-Owen had so much fun!!

  Remembering all of the memories--I love and miss you, Owen!